For the past week, I have worn a clunky boot to stabilize my foot. Apparently 2 months ago I broke a bone near my big toe, and although there was some pain I was able to walk around on it and teach Jazzercise. According to my doctor, it’s called a tibial sesamoid fracture. Below is a picture I found on the internet to show which bone I’m talking about, and you get the added bonus of seeing my awesome accessory for the next month!
It’s crazy that I went to LA, D.C., and did various activities in El Paso with a broken bone. If the boot doesn’t heal it completely, then I can either have steroid shots or have the bone surgically removed. I do not want surgery.
But that is not my exciting news… 🙂
I am officially the new Middle School Coordinator for Ciudad Nueva starting this summer! Simon, the current Middle School coordinator, will train me until then to make sure I have a smooth transition. Accepting this job means I am committing to staying in El Paso for at least 2 more years.
I went to Pasadena, CA about 3 weeks ago to check out another non-profit to get new ideas to help better our programs at Ciudad Nueva. I am stepping into this position with a lot of ideas and motivation to change the program. Knowing that some of my coworkers will read this, here are my honest feelings:
It is simultaneously scary and exciting to accept this position. I had a long phone conversation with my friend Christi about it, and although I am ready to do it I am scared about the challenges ahead. I know it will be a hard year. The change means facing conflict, whether from people I work with, the students I lead, their parents, or other outside sources. I am not fluent in Spanish, which makes it challenging to connect with the students and their parents (and quite frankly, it is something I am self-conscious about because being fluent in Spanish would be so helpful).
This past Friday our staff had leadership training. One of the things we learned is that trust is the foundation of leadership. Without trust, nothing can be done. I am grateful that Ciudad Nueva trusts me to step into this position, and I’m grateful for the relationships I have already established among the students. But there is still a lot of work that needs to be done to build relationships with other community members.
Another thing we learned is the difference between managing and leading. According to their separate definitions, I am an amazing manager. I am good with a schedule, I like structure, am very good at planning, and can maintain programs well. It is not in my nature to see beyond what is already tangible, to envision and create goals for the future. It is hard for me to be flexible. There are a lot of things that I am not good at, but God chooses the least likely to do His work. I am faithful and confident that for some reason, I am allowed to do this job because God has a purpose for it. I will attempt to remain humble, and that I cannot claim any success as my own, but will attribute that success to the Lord who has placed me in this position.
So, I am overwhelmed, excited, scared, nervous, excited…and WOW. Two more years in El Paso!!! Other things are coming together, too. I have a possible living situation for next year but haven’t made any commitments to that just yet. Prayers for guidance are much appreciated!